Purpose: This study explored the meaning of Heart Smile Training (HST) experiences for middle-aged novice counselors. Using an autobiographical narrative research method, the researcher examined their own internal reflections through HST practice as a middle-aged individual entering the counseling field.

Method: Research data were collected from multiple autobiographical sources, including past recollections, personal memos, reflective diaries, and social media documentation. Field texts were gathered and structured into interim texts using the temporality axis of narrative inquiry, then constructed into research texts based on counseling theories and previous research for meaning analysis.

In the telling process, experiences were classified along three temporal dimensions: pre-HST experiences, HST program participation, and daily HST practice. The HST program experiences were further divided into three sub-themes by participation sequence.

Results: In the retelling process, four themes emerged: “Accepting authenticity instead of perfection,” “Recovering decision-making and practical ability through gentle attention and clear knowing,” “Growing as a counselor while caring for oneself,” and “Shifting from controlling life to accepting and living it out.”

Conclusion: The findings can inform future exploration of counselors’ reflective and practical growth, and provide insights for psychological support and policy interventions needed for middle-aged individuals facing life transitions.